Thanksgiving is a beautiful time of year. I'm not simply talking about the crispness of the air, the leaves changing to flaming hues, the fact that I can once again wear leggings on a daily basis, or consume everything pumpkin.
It's true beauty lies in the fact that as a nation we reflect on God's blessings in our lives over the past year.
There is nothing more beautiful than a thankful heart.
A lot happens over the course of a year. I've shed tears of grief as loved ones have passed away and tears of joy as new ones have been born. I've witnessed countless friends join together in the covenant of marriage. I've completed nursing school. I've moved back and forth between my homes and groups of friends that are 2,000 miles apart. But the single most influential event in my life this past year, was my dad's diagnosis of that dreaded word no one wants to ever hear the doctor say:
cancer.
My faith was put to the test in a way I never fathomed it would be. My dad was diagnosed with Stage 3 Cancer while I was out of state for college. I was on my own to deal with the news and there was no one I could turn to- save God. The result is something I still struggle to put into words. After hanging up the phone with my mom that bitterly cold morning, I cried out broken in prayer. I didn't even know what to pray for, but God knew my heart. I was washed over with an incredible sense of peace before I could even muster an "Amen". That same sense of overwhelming peace has stayed with me each day since.
I'm convinced it's a result of my complete trust and dependence in God. The Holy Spirit has begun a new work in me and I can now proclaim wholeheartedly,
"I am thankful for cancer!"
Wait, what? Before you jump to conclusions, let me explain.
I am not thankful because of the havoc it has wrecked on my earthly father, but because
it has drawn me abundantly closer to my Heavenly Father.
I have never been more
aware of how truly blessed I am than in this current season of life.
I have never been
filled with such an overflow of joy.
I have never been
stronger in my faith.
Would I ever wish for my dad to experience cancer?
Of course not.
But we live in a fallen world and the effects of sin are evidenced in our broken bodies. It amazes me how God, in His goodness, uses trials to strengthen our faith and point us to the cross. If you're struggling with the concept of why bad things happen to good people and find yourself asking how a Sovereign God could possibly allow it, I encourage you to look at the glass as being half full rather than half empty. I pose this question to you:
Why has God gifted His love and salvation to a fallen people?
We are not deserving of God's blessing. We are not deserving of the forgiveness of our sins. We are not deserving of salvation and eternal life.
We are deserving of hell.
And in this here lies the beauty of the Gospel! That God in His love and mercy, sent His only begotten Son to die on a cross and bear the entirety of God's wrath against all mankind. Through repentance and faith in Christ we are offered the gift of salvation.
We don't know what the future will hold in store, but we do know with absolute certainty that God will give us the strength to endure it.
I can say with confidence that I have never experienced God's Presence as acutely as I have the past year. It has been a difficult journey, but a beautiful one as I have watched God carry me each step of the way. And I would not change any of it.
Because God Is Good All The Time!